Thursday, May 13, 2010

Calm my heart

The lilac bush between my and my neighbor's yard is in full bloom and every year I bring in armfuls for short-lived fragrant vases.  They make me smile every time I walk in the door and they lift my spirits.

I could use any extra excuse to find serenity right now.  A tragedy involving a 4 year old boy has been in our local news.  I could only get through a paragraph of details and I had to stop.  Thinking about it makes me want to scream and hug my kids and vomit all at the same time.  I need peace in my heart.


  1. I am appalled, I am amazed that there is that kind of evil in this world. And so close.

  2. Love the smell of lilac even at 6am this morning when I was walking with a friend. I am with you on the vomit, scream, cry and hug my own at the same time.

  3. I had to check your news to see what was going on and - wow - makes me so angry. How could she let that happen?! It also makes me sort of feel guilty for being blessed to come into the world to my family (even if they're dysfunctional at times...) and that my kids were blessed to come to us.

    I recently started re-reading the Book of Mormon and this scripture reminds me of how I should deal with stuff like this - 1 Nephi 11:17 - "I know that he loveth his children; nevertheless, I do not know the meaning of all things" Somehow it will all get worked out. It still stinks though. Sometimes the whole agency thing stinks.

  4. I love lilacs. They are the best.

    Just remember who he is with now. He is in such a better place. No more abuse.

  5. Just horrifying. I've been reeling ever since I heard about this.

    I recently read a prophesy about the last days that said, "mothers will cast their children away from them as though they were poisonous reptiles." I'm getting to the point where I am really, really looking forward to the coming of the Savior and the end of all this pain that evil people inflict on innocents. :(

  6. I think the hard part is when your kids hear about do you explain to a 6 year old "yes they found the little boy and he is with Heavenly Father" and he responds with the great word of "WHY".

  7. I LOVE lilacs! I have a teeny tiny lilac bush I planted last year and it actually has blossoms on it! Only three, but still!
    I feel the same way about the poor little guy. I made the mistake of reading the documents, and really wish I hadn't. I balled my head off and Sam thought I had lost it. I can't believe something so horrible could happen to someone so young. That poor sweet little boy.


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